Alone

Edgar Allan Poe

From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were—I have not seen
As others saw—I could not bring
My passions from a common spring—
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow—I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone—
And all I lov’d—I lov’d alone—
Then—in my childhood—in the dawn
Of a most stormy life—was drawn
From ev’ry depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still—
From the torrent, or the fountain—
From the red cliff of the mountain—
From the sun that ’round me roll’d
In its autumn tint of gold—
From the lightning in the sky
As it pass’d me flying by—
From the thunder, and the storm—
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view—

Question: What are some seminal and/or controversial creative outputs/projects in your targeted domain(s)? What makes them so?

This was one of the poems that I came across which was more seminal in my targeted domain. ‘Alone’ by Edgar Allan Poe is a personal lamentation or autobiography of his life in which he describes his emotions and perspectives of his struggles as a result of his circumstance. It could also be seen as a confession of his struggles with depression.

In the poem, he presents a glimpse into his childhood whereby he was orphaned at an early age and was sent for studies abroad by his step parents. He depicts his struggles of growing up alone and being unable to experience real happiness. The lines that are particularly striking are:

My passions from a common spring—
From the same source I have not taken

Here, he describes his mental desolation that drives his “passions” and his flair in writing. And from that source in which he was able to derive his writing ability from, it brings him mental despair.

From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow—I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone—
And all I lov’d—I lov’d alone—

Here, Edgar describes himself finding loneliness and isolation even within the things he love.

This, I do believe is one of the most seminal outputs in the literary domain. I am certain it resonates strongly with many writers and poets, given that the expression of writing originates from an intimate place, one which many refuse to share with the world. Writing, is sharing emotions which cannot be worded by the mouth. As such, many, especially myself would say that in some way or another, this poem describes aptly how literary writers feel most of the time. While this “source” may not be a broken background or an innate sense of loneliness and isolation (though it happens to be most of the time), all literary writers have a source in which they tap on to produce a creative output.

Another hypothesis derived from this poem is that writers have a better understanding of their identity, which is why they may be more in touch with their emotions, where negative thoughts and emotions in the case of this poem, is amplified. The reflection we did, on finding your voice, may be foreign to many people as they have not questioned their purpose or their individual identity, choosing to conform to society’s expectations. Whereas for writers, I do believe that they have already found their identity, and choose to express it through writing. (This is not trying to generalise every other profession. I do believe there are many ways in which people find their identities and their voice other than through writing.)

Personally, writing allows me to express my emotions and my sentiments in another dimension in which I believe can only be achieved through writing. Similar to Edgar Allan Poe’s “source”, mine usually originates from one of loneliness, though it would be extremely impudent to say that our degrees of loneliness are the same. My greatest inspiration for writing comes, when I am in a foreign country, walking down a crowded street on a cold night, feeling lonely. I do not yet have an explanation for this feeling but it just comes and goes, like waves in the sea. Perhaps, the best word I discovered that describes this is ‘monachopsis’.

Edgar Allan Poe’s feeling of isolation is perhaps, expressed in one of the most distressing way I have ever came across in my years of writing and reading. He states:

From the thunder, and the storm—
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view—

Here, Edgar Allan Poe distances himself, or rather, find himself distanced from the rest of the world -“Heaven” while he has a “demon” in his view. The “demon” here refers to himself, where he sees himself so wretched and broken that it locks himself out from heaven. The contrast between heaven and demon here shows the depth in which he feels out of place in this world.

Again, the distance here is something I am certain, the gatekeepers in my domain may feel constantly. I am not referring to a social life or having friends. But rather, there is always this gap I believe writers feel between themselves and the world. I feel it constantly, when I have a wealth of emotions to express but I do not know how to do so. The only way in which I have been able to show slivers of these emotions is through my writing.

Edgar Allan Poe’s ‘Alone’ is written as a lyrical poem. The writing style here is in couplets, moving from an iambic tetrameter to a trochaic tetrameter. The poem uses many words with the vowels ‘a’ and ‘o’ as well, which give off a darker and melancholic tone. This poem, is in my humble opinion, one of the most beautifully written poems I have ever read. It gives off a beautiful and forlorn sadness. The literary techniques used in this poem were extensive and intricate as well. I would say that this poem really would be a seminal piece in the literary domain.

‘Alone’ also covers the aspect of controversial if we were to analyse it during its time. Edgar Allan Poe lived in the 1800s where depression was not recognised as an illness but rather dismissed or concluded as an individual’s own deficiencies. In common day, depression has been looked at more seriously, with suicide rates increasing. Back in Edgar’s day, he would have been classified as a case of personal weakness and inaptitude. This poem, I believe, if it was proliferated during that time, would have brought immense comfort to those who suffered the same illness as well. Even today, many societies still frown upon people with depression. This poem would be a great rallying call for many.

There are many creative outputs that are both seminal and controversial in this domain. However, I felt the need to share this poem as I felt that it really encapsulates everything I believe writers (or at least myself) feel. It is what I myself would fear to disclose in detail to anyone else, which Edgar courageously pens as one of his greatest works.

Love

On nights like this
In the crevasses of my mind
A girl dances in bliss
Hair flowing like waters Rhine

Against the comfort orange glow
That envelops from the haunted cold
Likewise her lasting embrace
Started to make my heart race

In feather white linen we lay
Looking out together at the grey
And back at each other in light
I looked into her brown eyes
‘Oh what a sight

Such a vision so ethereal
If only I could make this thought corporeal
In time is all I could hope for
Because if the world stood still
This would be all I want, nothing more

On nights like this, I fear
The turning of heart like the sea
The sailor who lost who he endeared
In the crashing waves that drowned his plea

Like the unknown of the forest
Where Acacia trees cause light recluse
There the darkness seeps in jest
Making love a satirical ruse

On nights like this
My mind greatly grieves
While the heart yearns of a cradled kiss
My body suffers through conflicted eves

Yet on nights like this
The foretold story comforts
And frees my heart from aching lisp
As I set my head down to sleep with thoughts conferred

The fable took me to a house in the woods
Where I saw life’s beautiful dance
And in amidst the babbling brooks
I saw you happily prance

It might just be a dream
Or life’s interim
But one day I’ll see it transpire
As I lay it down to be what I aspire

Question: Reflection of your overall CT journey

Review:
This poem titled “Love” personifies “creativity” and describes my personal relationship with creative thinking. I felt that this captures my takeaways from this creative thinking course. There are three parts to this poem, “The Girl”, “The Loss” and “The Story”.

Part One: The Girl

On nights like this
In the crevasses of my mind
A girl dances in bliss
Hair flowing like waters Rhine

Against the comfort orange glow
That envelops from the haunted cold
Likewise her lasting embrace
Started to make my heart race

In feather white linen we lay
Looking out together at the grey
And back at each other in light
I looked into her brown eyes
‘Oh what a sight

Such a vision so ethereal
If only I could make this thought corporeal
In time is all I could hope for
Because if the world stood still
This would be all I want, nothing more

Creativity is likened to a “girl” in stanza one, which immediately paints the element of ‘obscurity’ through the diction “crevasses”. The girl had hair flowing “like waters Rhine”. This is also used to portray creativity as a lustrous embodiment, something that is almost “magical”, using the imagery of the Rhine river which flows over white limestone.

The second stanza describes my relationship with creativity. Here, I juxtaposed the ideas of cold and warmth, where the girl and her embrace presents warmth amidst the “haunted cold”. The imagery of an orange glow in a cold night further elucidates the idea of contrast. In this stanza, I am trying to express the comfort I have with creative thinking and writing, whereby I am well in my comfort zone or my ‘happy place’.

The third stanza continues the narration of a romantic relationship, where in each other’s embrace, the persona has fallen deeply in love. “Oh what a sight” was my effort in putting a ‘love sigh’ into words. Again, there is a contrast, “Looking out together at the grey” with embracing the “orange glow” in the second stanza. The third stanza sheds some light on my perspective of creativity, which is that I believe creativity brings colour to our everyday lives. Without it, our perspectives would only be grey and plain.

The fourth stanza reiterates the desire for the girl, or love, by the persona. However, it also states that this ‘girl’ is just a vision or a fantasy, a figment of the persona’s imagination in which he wishes for it to be “corporeal”. This links back to stanza one in which the girl dances in “the crevasses of my mind”. This is a reflection on my past pieces of writing throughout this course, where I believe that creativity has always been elusive and has always been something I struggled with in pursuing. While I desire to express my creativity, it has almost always only took place in random autotelic moments which I always felt did not represent my individual being adequately. There has always been an innate desire to be known and to express myself as a creative person. As such, I portray creativity as a girl in which I fantasise to be with.

Part Two: The Loss

On nights like this, I fear
The turning of heart like the sea
The sailor who lost who he endeared
In the crashing waves that drowned his plea

Like the unknown of the forest
Where Acacia trees cause light recluse
There the darkness seeps in jest
Making love a satirical ruse

On nights like this
My mind greatly grieves
While the heart yearns of a cradled kiss
My body suffers through conflicted eves

Part two describes the loss that the persona fears. The persona fears that he may not have love, or that the person he loves will have a change of heart. In stanza one, the theme of ‘sea’ and ‘waves’ are employed to express the turmoil that the persona feels, whereby he likens himself to a sailor who has lost his loved one. The layers I wove here were interesting because on one hand, the sea is the home of the sailor, but on the other hand, it is the very element that is used to portray the changing of hearts just like the turning of tides or waves. Tying this to my personal perspective, I have always felt a personal sense of responsibility to further my career, to provide for my family and to live comfortably. However, to do that, would mean losing my creativity to the rigidity of my career which is finance. Or so I thought. My creative sense of writing would have been washed out by the finance field critiquing my output in their domain.

The second stanza reiterates this point as well as the uncertainty and overhang that I have felt throughout entire semester, trying to figure out whether or not I was going to be an embodiment of both creativity and career or focus on one. Here, I used the concepts of light and darkness, used to evoke a sinister feeling. The literary techniques here that I want to highlight in particular are the personifying of darkness where it “seeps in jest”. This was used to show how firstly, the fear of loss taunts the persona about love and encroaches upon him, and secondly, how the fear of commitment to both creativity and career has stumbled my progress in either.

The third stanza portrays my wistfulness amidst all that is happening around me. While my “heart yearns of a cradled kiss”, where “kiss” alludes to the girl and creativity, there is a great sense of conflict, one in which I expressed in greater detail in my personal creative project.

Part 3: The Story

Yet on nights like this
The foretold story comforts
And frees my heart from aching lisp
As I set my head down to sleep with thoughts conferred

The fable took me to a house in the woods
Where I saw life’s beautiful dance
And in amidst the babbling brooks
I saw you happily prance

It might just be a dream
Or life’s interim
But one day I’ll see it transpire
As I lay it down to be what I aspire

Part three has been aptly titled as ‘The Story’. This refers to creative thinking as a module. It represents what the module has done for me and is a reflection of personal outcomes from the module.

The first stanza portrays the story as a “comfort”, which relieves my conflicted emotions and aspirations. This module has shown me what are the useful aspects of creativity and how I can use creative thinking in many ways other than just writing. It shows me that creative thinking is really a frame of mind rather than an output, something which I have previously always been fixated on. Different techniques throughout the course such as SCAMPER, blending, marrying the dichotomies, are all things that I can use actively to solve problems in business cases and scenarios. It also helps in idea generation, having a reference point, such as the red block activity, to build up our ideas. I have always had the perspective that creativity was something “artistic” or literary in nature but never had the perspective that it was always a frame of mind.

The second stanza brings back the girl in which the persona again has this vision of this fairytale. This is my personal gratitude to the creative thinking module, which gave me the opportunity to rekindle my love for writing and my expression through this medium. The fact that the module allowed us to express our creative thinking freely, allowed me to pen down my thoughts illustratively, unfettered by what others may think or how the education system has trained us to think.

The last stanza represents my hopes for the future. I recognise that this module may be short-lived, and may just be an “interim” throughout my entire life, but it has really set me down to think deeply about what I want for my personal self and my future. This module has really instilled confidence in my direction in life and how I would want to be a creative self amidst a “world of grey”.

Last but not least, thank you Prof. Alan for teaching this module. It has been an inspiring semester not only through your teachings but also through seeing the works of other students in class and hearing their thoughts and opinions. Though it may be a half module worth 0.5 credits, it has certainly been worth the effort and the time spent in developing my creative self. I hope my literary works have had some sort of impact on you as well. Thank you!

Pier

She saw

Old widows waiting by the sea
Sorrow in hand, heart lost of glee
Debilitating in waves crashed hopes
And sunken cheeks

A girl in youth
Flowered in cloth and perfect breath
Should not have to wait
Like the old widows till death

She saw

A woman with no name
Standing strongly at ocean’s end
Staring down into the blue abyss
Yearning to transcend

she warns

A girl in youth
Flowered hair and unabated breath
Of the perils of disloyalty
Places her husband in the arms of death

She saw

A storm in the eastern skies
An outcry of every lost woman
Darkening waters and dreams
A telltale story of a sailor’s demise

A woman in youth
Jade combed hair and shorted breath
Stood by the pier nevertheless
To answer the call of death

Individual Project
Review:
This poem was inspired by The Woman Warrior by Maxine Hong Kingston. While The Woman Warrior had many themes, I believe its central theme was about Maxine herself finding her identity, growing up as a Chinese-American girl in California, and being able to achieve an individual voice amidst society. I believe this book was very apt in describing our creative thinking module. I adapted the theme for this book, for a personal take on my opinion piece on my struggles between different callings in life – one being my calling to be a writer, and the other being someone in the finance industry.

There are three stages of a girl being described in this poem. The first one, would be a girl in her youth.

“She saw

Old widows waiting by the sea
Sorrow in hand, heart lost of glee
Debilitating in waves crashed hopes
And sunken cheeks

A girl in youth
Flowered in cloth and perfect breath
Should not have to wait
Like the old widows till death”

The first stanza here addresses people who have worked their entire lives, devoting themselves to their jobs but with no love for it at all. They only do it to get by, to provide for their families. I understood this by looking at my parents, my dad being a safety consultant and my mum being a purchaser. Neither of them loved their jobs, but they worked solely to provide for me and the family.
I likened it to old widows who wait by the sea, where they have lost any purpose and enjoyment in their jobs, hoping for a “return” one day for an enjoyment in their jobs but not realising that it will never come, hence the term “widows”. I also blended the idea of waves crashing, into hopes, to draw out the image of hopes of enjoyment from work being dashed and sunken.
As a bystander, the “girl”, I knew then when I saw my parents, that I should not have to wait “till death” for an enjoyment in my professional field to come but rather seek it out for myself.

The second stage, a woman who is working on her career:

“She saw

A woman with no name
Standing strongly at ocean’s end
Staring down into the blue abyss
Yearning to transcend

she warns

A girl in youth
Flowered hair and unabated breath
Of the perils of disloyalty
Places her husband in the arms of death”

Here, I adapted Maxine Hong Kingston’s story of the “No-Name Woman” from The Woman Warrior. It speaks about the story of Maxine’s aunt who was offered as a cautionary tale to all women in the old Chinese society. Her aunt was impregnated by a man from the village who could not be identified, while her husband was overseas in the US working. This resulted in the villagers raiding her house and destroying her family’s livestock, crops and possessions. She fled the house, gave birth in a pigsty and subsequently committed suicide by drowning herself in a well with the newborn baby, believing that they would be both better off dead than suffer in this world. She is named the “No-Name Woman” because of the humiliation and the embarrassment she had brought to the household, which removes the right for her to be named.

Here, the ideas I blended was my love for writing and the practical aspiration of being in finance. I compared it to an “affair”, where the “No-Name Woman” has served as warning for people who cannot choose between their career paths, which has led to her death. The second stanza in this paragraph is actually a story of King David in the Bible where he committed adultery with Bathsheba, resulting in the death of her husband, Uriah where King David sent him to the frontlines of battle for him to die. Here, I was trying use the story as an analogy for committing adultery, where I would be sending my husband, a metaphor for “breadwinner”, especially in ancient China, to die. My purpose here was to blend two stories and use them as an analogy.

The third stage, the end of a woman’s career:

“She saw

A storm in the eastern skies
An outcry of every lost woman
Darkening the pier and the waters
A telltale story of a sailor’s demise

A woman in youth
Jade combed hair and shorted breath
Stood by the pier nevertheless
To answer the call of death”

This last stage is a description of my current self and my state of mind to the entire conflict within myself.
The first stanza in this stage is a foreshadowing of what is to come if I continued “flirting” with the possibility of having both a passion for writing and the desire to be adept in finance. I tried to build on the initial story of women losing their “happiness” from working, and also highlight my anxiety and my worry for losing my happiness and enjoyment in working if I were to continue in finance. I may end up like my parents, not finding joy in work but merely working for practical reasons such as supporting the family.
Here, the “girl” has became a “woman”, signifying growth with jade combed hair. In ancient China, girls undergo a hair pinning ceremony at the age of 15 to symbolise the coming of age. Just before marriage, they leave their hair long and combed which is considered a very attractive trait of girls in China. “Jade combed hair and shorted breath” is an expression of my current position, waiting for “marriage” (a career choice) and “shorted breath” representing my anxiety as mentioned earlier.

The poem concludes with “Stood by the pier nevertheless, to answer the call of death”. This represents my indignation and resolute, in knowing that even though I may run the risk of not finding joy in my future career, I will stick by my decision. Also, “to answer the call of death” draws another theme from The Woman Warrior. In the book, women are generally deemed as people with no voice due to the patriarchal system in society. The use of the diction “answer” shows a refute of that system. Here, it represents my rejection of the idea that one cannot be good in both the “literary arts” and “finance”, both being opposable to each other. By the statement of “answering the call of death” I am showing that I will strive to be good at both and this will give me my individual voice in society.

At the very essence of it, I am the marriage of the two dichotomies of being imaginative and grounded in my personality, trying to reconcile the opposable themes of words and numbers, and to generate synergies by combining both which will make me a better person.

Hotel

Inebriated amidst the phosphorescence
An empty ghost who fed on bottled spirits
Lying and waiting, emotions in evanescence
Not a shadow, not a soul
The faded sound could not make him whole

A light in the distance
The warmth seemingly infinite
A haven for weary wraiths in reminiscence
Calls out a melody of sulky smile and sultry eyes
That a mortal may have recognised the apparition

Hungry for restoration
An empty ghost who acts in passion
What civilisation has deemed a transgression
It was a minute of satisfaction
But an eternity of damnation

The ritual for resurrection was consummated
A human, eyes reflecting the luminescence
Lying in the wake of turmoil unadulterated

Question: Review the video “Rethinking infidelity … a talk for anyone who has ever loved”, by Esther Perel

Review:
The poem entitled ‘Hotel’ describes the entire process of cheating and infidelity. Stanza one sets the stage as a club scene, where ‘phosphorescence’ and ‘faded sound’ is used to represent the setting of a club. I used the metaphor of ‘an empty ghost who fed on bottled spirits’ as a wordplay to continue building the setting of a person getting drunk on spirits.

Throughout this poem, you will see my references to two categories of entities – Ghost / Spirit / Wraith and Human / Mortal. I used the former to describe someone who feels empty inside as what Esther Perel mentions in her video, as one of the reasons for cheating. As for the latter, I used it as a metaphor for an individual who is deeply in love with his spouse as he is deemed to be ‘complete’ or have ‘everything back at home’ as how Esther describes it.

For the second stanza, the light in the distance represents not only the hotel where the infidelity is taking place but is also representative of the love, where the ‘warmth is seemingly infinite’, another reason cited by Esther for why men cheat which is because they want the attention and the love that they are not getting in their marriage. In the third line, I likened infidelity to ‘a haven for weary wraiths in reminiscence’, yet another reason cited by Esther for why men cheat which is because they want to have a taste of what they had before in the beginning of their relationships – the initial feeling of passion which had petered out through the years of marriage.

In the fourth line of the second stanza, I made a reference to the song ‘Family Man’, initially sung by Mike Oldfield and became popular when covered by Hall & Oates. In the song, it describes a lover tempting a ‘family man’ to cheat, and I felt that the reply by the family man in the song was very apt for a man committing infidelity. The lyrics are
“But he said, leave me alone, I’m a family man.
And my bark is worse than my bite…
…If you push me too far I just might.”
In her talk, Esther mentions that there are many ways of committing infidelity in today’s world where just the thought of it may be considered as cheating. I felt this song accurately represents that thought process. Also, in the fifth line, “A mortal may have recognised this apparition”, I likened the temptation to be so strong that it could have seduced a ‘mortal’ as well which in this context, refers to a man deeply in love with his spouse.

Stanza 3 describes the physical act of infidelity itself, where I likened a man wanting to have a taste of the initial passion or attention and love that he had with his wife and therefore committing infidelity to a ‘ghost’ hungry to be ‘restored’ to a ‘human being’.

The last stanza paints a scene in the hotel room in the aftermath of committing infidelity, through the words “luminescence” used to describe the soft hotel lights as well as “lying” as in both physically “lying” in the hotel bed and “lying” in turmoil. I use this stanza to describe how the ‘ghost’ has been ‘resurrected’ into a human being through the ‘ritual’ of infidelity. This is to draw parallels to what Esther mentions about the ‘good’ that arises from infidelity. Esther believes, rather controversially that good can preside from a man cheating on the other because it may result in more truthful discussions on how the marriage went wrong and what can be done about it and this may eventually lead to a more loving relationship. Therefore, I brought in the metaphors of the ghost and the human being in the last stanza, to the transformation of a man who initially felt empty, finding a ‘second marriage to the same person’ as Esther puts it and rekindles love and passion within the marriage even after infidelity has been committed.

I believe that what Esther was sharing was rather aberrant from how society views infidelity. Her thought leadership appears as one that is not guarded by the stereotypical feelings of how one should feel after being cheated on. But rather, she probes at reason behind the act of infidelity and how can people best rectify the relationship. She questions both the familiar feeling of betrayal and sadness from being cheated on but also questions the underlying reasons for such an occurrence and how there may be something good out of it. In a way, she marries the dichotomies of emotion and logic into an act of infidelity, deriving a solution from this act that has already been committed.

While I do see her logical standpoint, I do believe that she might be too optimistic in thinking that our logical side may be on equal parity or prevail against the emotional side during an act of infidelity. Personally, I believe in the sanctity of marriage and an act of infidelity would definitely ruin either parties. In the last line of the poem, it states “Lying in the wake of turmoil unadulterated”. This is a culmination of my own personal opinion of what Esther has talked about. I believe ‘turmoil’ is even an understatement of what things will be like after an act of infidelity. Here, I also used “unadulterated” to describe the turmoil faced. I applied irony here whereby the turmoil faced by someone who commits adultery is unadulterated. Overall, Esther does present certain thought-provoking points, I do not believe that there will be anything good that comes out of an act of infidelity, and even if there are, those are probably extremely rare.

Forte-two

I saw a figure in the woods
A silhouette, down the road less travelled by
Was it a person, I did not know
Only a human-like body disappearing into the darkening sky

Beckoned by an adventurous allure,
I followed it down the road less travelled by
To the thorns and thickets encroaching on me
Calling out the dreaded demons of the night

The figure halted in its path, noticing I was trailing behind
But recommenced its journey
After letting out a faint laugh and a sad sigh

Maybe the heavens heard its sorrowful sigh
Or the clouds felt too heavy laden with grief
And decided to reply

It was getting dark and cold
So I turned away from my discourse
And made headway for the fold
Worried that I would be caught in nature’s force

In the morning
I wonder, treading down the worn road
If I continued down the road less travelled
What would have been unto me bestowed

Question:
Who do I see myself becoming and/or what do I see myself doing in the future?

Review:
I titled this poem forte-two as a wordplay on forty-two, as a response to the question. This is my response as myself at twenty-four years old wondering what my forte will be at forty-two, hence the title ‘Forte-two’.

I wrote this poem also in response to ‘The Road Not Taken’ by Robert Frost. In the poem, he states that he made the road less travelled by and that has made all the difference. There are many interpretations to that specific line itself. My poem is in response to my own personal interpretation.

The ‘figure’ in the poem represents two things. Firstly, it represents my 18 year old self chasing the dream of writing and literature. In the first stanza, it states that the figure traverses down the road less travelled by. In this sense, it means that dream-chasing was not the usual route of educational interest in STEM or law or business management but rather the arts. The ‘darkening sky’ in the first stanza is used to induce an ominous and foreboding emotion of such a pursuit.

In the second stanza, it states that ‘I follow this figure down the road less travelled by’, representing my initial pursuit in chasing my dreams and my ‘self’ of being a writer. The second stanza reiterates even further the perils of this pursuit, by using the imagery of the ‘thorns and thickets’. Firstly, by using ‘thorns and thickets’, with the consonants t produce harsher sounds compared to words with consonants f and l. Also, ‘calling out the dreaded demons of the night’ in stanza two is an imagery of the thorns and thickets casting frightening shadows in the night, which is also representative of the journey that lies ahead – terrifying and intimidating.

The ‘figure’ in the third stanza represents a future self in third person, where it knows that this pursuit of my passion in writing will be short-lived. The ‘laugh’, a hollow laughter coupled with a ‘sad sigh’, paints a melancholic mood to the scene, and shows my ‘self’s’ despondence with the fact that it will be a worthless pursuit, in light of the difficulties and struggles that entail with such a pursuit.

The forth stanza uses pathetic fallacy as a literary device. I wrote it to amplify the significance of loss that I associate with this abandoned pursuit in writing as a career. Also, it further ties in the difficulties as a writer in the industry where it will be wrought with strive.

The fifth stanza is a narration of my abandonment of the pursuit of writing as a career, given that I believe I should be pragmatic instead and not brave it out in the ‘harsh weather’.

The last stanza is a summation of where I am now and where I believe I will be at forty-two: wondering what would have become of me if I had chosen writing as a career instead of finance. Robert Frost in his poem states, ‘I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all the difference’. I believe my future self will always look back at the defining moment in my life where I chose finance as a career instead of writing.

In essence, I see myself as a finance person in the future, with a background and a passion for writing. This skill however, is rarely highlighted or recognised. I had a dream of being a writer, but I gave that up to pursue what I thought would be the most pragmatic and most likely for me to be able to give my family a very comfortable life in the future. However, the future forty-two year old me will always wonder the ‘what if’ of pursuing writing as a career.

Other literary techniques employed:
When talking about myself, the stanzas are always in four lines. While talking about the ‘figure’, it is always three lines. ‘Three’ throughout history has significance of many things, such as completeness such as in the Bible; the Holy Trinity, the three angels, three gifts presented in Jesus. Whereas ‘Four’ represents material things. For example, God created all material things in Day 4 of Creation without animal life. The analogy here is that I am pursuing material aspects in life while the ‘figure’ is something that would possibly have completed myself as in individual.



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A self-proclaimed writer who rhymes words and strings sentences.

I navigate the grey world of finance, repressing the colours within me
Hoping to be a master of capitalism
While maintaining my creativity

In this grey world of finance, green is all you see
Blue and yellow are meaningless
At least that’s what you told me

I used to revel in the sun after a rain
Where did that leave me
Shunned by a monochrome world
Living a life of colourless pity.

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